The rain garden is planted! Now if I can just manage to keep it alive long enough for the plants to get established in the soil, I think we'll be good to go. It looks pretty, but we'll see if things actually begin to grow. I'm not great at waiting for things to happen. I want the flowers to bloom and the birds and butterflies to come now, but that isn't really how it works.
This is very much the way I would like to be healed from mental illness. Just do it, cross it off the list, and move on. But healing takes time, and it doesn't always look the way that I want it to.
I want to be completely over OCD.
To never perform another compulsion.
To dismiss the trigger thoughts immediately.
To live in total peace, not anxiety - forgiveness, not fear.
But this is a journey, and one that will probably not be completed until I am in heaven.
Do you find yourself also wanting things to be done now? How do you practice patience?
